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I'm a fuck up.  It's who I am, it's what I do.  All I ever wanted was to not be that person, and I truly believed being transparent with you was a great start.  I trusted you with me.  I was so sure and free (believe me), I thought I could fly again.  I was eight again, and you were my non judgmental friend.  Today was my best friend's birthday.  He's gone - no matter how many times I look up to the sky to talk to him, no matter how I look around for a replacement, he's gone and I'm still here - alone.

I can't believe it is like this now...

Snare-aware

Though stronger words were never spoken
The curse of Narcissus is broken
Thank Heaven for natural selection
As I survive my now frail reflection
And I, strengthened, must thus proceed
Until the next time of reflection's need

Come, promise compromise!

Sinus pressure subsiding, I can breathe and think again. What are you thinking about? Do you realize the choices I have made in the name of this love? Would you ready have me fully destitute? Is that what you have learned from your captors? And what of your liberators? When will you apply their lessons? I don't tell you things anymore, and this it's strategic. You had me fully transparent, but hated my weak moments. I am now merely being a 'normal' man. There are decisions I make that any reasonable person would see as reasonable. I'll stay in here a little longer, little boy safe from your undeserved wrath for now.